You have no idea of how many times I have tried so hard to keep everything at bay, to make sure all the negative vibes and the evil thoughts I have are buried so deep in myself. So deep that they can never get out even if they try to.
But I don't think I'm doing a good job at it.
Apparently, being nice is harder than it seems. Not that I am nice or anything but damn boy, who would guess that trying to restrain yourself from doing something demonic could be so hard that you just want to let it all out without bothering to bottle everything inside anymore.
The thought sounds tempting.
I've been keeping stuff to myself. I don't know yet if it's a good thing or not but nowadays I feel like there's no point of voicing out things that have been messing with my mind to other people. Of course it feels good to share it with people but I usually end up feeling like a freaking idiot. Which happens to be something tiring.
So I'm trying not to entertain my evil thoughts and the demons.
p/s: I hate that whenever I'm not writing I would have so many things drafting in mind but go blank whenever I'm actually writing.