Do you know that when a boy breaks a girl's heart, it's much MUCH much more than you know it affected her? That her tears are not only to show how much it hurt but to at least try to blur out the world so she can forget? That she thinks every sleeping and waking moment what the hell did she did wrong? That when she looks at the photos of you with her, she tries to tear it but can't because they're really beautiful memories to keep? That she can't throw away the gifts and carefully preserved chocolate you gave her because YOU gave it to her? That whenever she thinks of the "I love you" words you told her, she mutters "I love you too" but realize she can't say it anymore? That's its like the whole world tumbling before her very eyes? NO. You don't know how it feels like. You don't know how it feels like to be cheated, to be left, to be fooled. And it's taken very seriously because once a girl loves. a girl really loves. (':
Friday, April 29, 2011
UNCERTAINTY is the biggest torture in LOVE;
You feel jealous yet you can't explain
You get hurt yet you can't show it
You can love with your all yet you can't say it.
All you can do is watch, enjoy the smiles,
KEEP THE PAIN
and show how much that person means to you. (:
My SUPERMAN said ...
"Kalau cantek tapi perangai tak best pown tak bule jugak.
Bangga dengan diri sendiri taw dak."
My PANDAMAN said ...
"Oit bong. Hang jangan la kata centu.Kena dya jadi awek aku sunggoh nanti aa,sapa nak jaga hang?"
HAHA. They are MINE.
Thank You. (:
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
Lama dah tak berkarya kat sini, dok bertapa kat maktab lama sangat nak muak dah aku tengok muka cegu cegi hat ada kat situ. Grr. Baru abeh exam YAY. Aku HEBAT gila, serius aku abaq kat hang aku hebat. ABCDEFG suma aku kutip. Ada berani maw lawan? Ehe. Terima kaseh kepada Bio kerna telah menjadi subjek pertama yang meng'failed'kan saya. Alaaa. First exam kan? Cis. Hang meqapu jea Nur Syahirah Berhan. Orang lain pown first exam jugak tapi awat ada yang A+ suma? Ish! Depa pandai, biaq p kat depa laa. *bermonolog*
A couple of weeks after this, exam final semester 1 pulak. Anyone, replace my place please please pretty please? Grr. Pointer tobat down DOWN down gila babeng ah. Toknekkkkkkk. Ganti tempat chek please? Lala. Ketaq lutut pikiaq pasai exam tapi haram TAK study study lagi. Pa nak jadi pown aku taktaw la. Bila nak insaf hah? Haishhh. =.=
Tak dilupakan juga ...
Selamat Hari Tua Toknek Fatini Hannah Shedy Abdul Latef Sayang!
Cu: Toknek dah tua!Toknek: Bukanlah. matang!Cu: Mana ada. Tua laa!Toknek: Dakkk! MATANG!
BHAHAHAHAHAHA. Matang la sangat kan tokwan kan kan kan? BHAHAHAHA. Oke. Tak gelak dah. *grinning* Toknek yang makin hensem gagah perkasa, anda tak bule ambik lesen drive lagi okie dokie? So tanamlah angan angan anda tu yang nak ambik lesen tak-dan-dan tuuuu. Ehe. Have a blast life. May GOD bless you. I love you lah toknek. Pssstttt. Paw hadiah kat tokwan hat mahai mahai noh? Bule anak cucu cicit tumpang dwa tiga kaki. Hee. :D
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Yes baby boo yes. I now that i'm not perfect. You always choose the perfect one so i know that we will never be together. I never expect that this is the end of everything. But you know what? This time i'm really serious about this thing. OVER. It's over baby boo. Listen to the background music. Understand the lyrics and you will know how i feel about you. (':
You were talking to her but messing with me. It's finally clear that you're blurring the lines. Are you disturbed? Oh, now you care why do you race through my red lights? This time i'm really clear about this. I'm done. I deleted your messages in my drafts plus my inbox. I deleted your number in both of my phones. I changed my phone's screen saver. I moved your pictures away. It's too bad that all your love letters were not here. If not i probably throw it away in the thrash or flush it in the toilet but i prefer to see those stupid letters burn in flame. So i gonna make my wish comes true. I will watch the letters burn in flame. I can make a movie too. HAHA. I'm deleting you in my life. You pray for me kan? THANK YOU. *grinning*
Save, save it for her. I'm not gonna hear your reasons and 'please-just-take-me-back'. I don't give a damn, big guy. *sigh* We were never right. Don't waste your breathe. You crashed and you're on your own tonight. Everything i gave you you break it. And i was so hurt that my heart couldn't take it. Boy, you nearly drove me insane. You'd cheat, i'd cry and you'd explain. Over and over the same routine, but me to hold on was such a strain. When i let go, that's when i gained, take note of this, i will never go back to you again.
Have done all this things to me? No kan? HA-HA. It was never love. Thanks dude. Don't say you're sorry. You don't ever mean it because you haven't change. *chuckle*
It's not hard to find someone who will tell you that they love you. It's hard to find someone that actually means it. Am i right? Dear you. I hurt a lot. Thanks for the scars on my heart. You taught me a lesson. The next time i'll fall in love, i want to fall for someone who will make me feel that loving him is the greatest decision i ever made and not just another mistake. You said you needed another time for my mistakes but it's funny how you used that time to have me replaced. Hey boy, you know what? I hate the feeling of missing things i've lost along the way. But somehow i'm not hoping for it's return because i know one day i can accept the fact that
"not all things are meant to stay with me".
Tonight of all times, why is it raining again. It makes me looks so pitiful. Don't try to console me. Move those hands, we're strangers now. Don't worry about me and go away, I'll disappear, no strings attached. You thought i'd hang onto you. It's disgusting, don't misunderstanding. I'll meet someone so much better, i'll make you regret it all. Sadness only for now, boy. Cause love is over. love is over, over tonight. (:
D e a r y o u ,
i know that i am too harsh about this. But i can't take it anymore. It's over.
F U L L S T O P .
Friday, April 1, 2011
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh. (:
Yes baby yesssssss. Today is the first day of April in two thousand eleven. Goodbye March. Take away all my tears and keep the memories at the back of my mind. So it means i'm getting older and closer to death. Pray for my long live please please pretty pleaseeeeee. HAHA. I'm spending my free time in my cold office typing this thing and my hands are freezing. This is my first time plus my first experience being one of the helpers that trapped in MARA Junior Science College Kubang Pasu Jail. But now, I had become a helpless helpers. Somebody, be my helpers please? @_@
A p r i l ' i a n s . (:
1st APRIL 2011.
Happy birthday Muhd. Nor Fakhri bin Mohammod!
We are just the same, getting older, getting closer to death. Even kita tak banyak cakap dalam kelas tapi lantak ah, nak wish jugak. HAHA. Happy birthday cina sayoq. Wish you all the best, no matter it is. (:
5th April 2011.
Oh my Giant kesayangan. HAHA. Lala. Giant, aku taw la hang makin tua but but but bagi makin mengurus please. HAHA. Bila hang nak balik mai sini weyyy? Tolong buat aku punya projek seni sattttttt. Wuwuwuuuu. Happy bornday Giant, wish you all the best of the best in your life. Anyway, don't forget to build me a bungalow when you have be an architect nah? :D
30th April 2011.
Ahhhaaaaaa! My beloved abah. Abah abah abah, abah nak pencen dah noh taon neyh? Lepaih ni bule p meqata la noh? Tobat chek tak bule ikot, kena dok dalam penjaqa. Lala. HAHA. Happy bornday abah! Semoga panjang umoq murah rezeki bule p melancong yay! HAHA. (:
O t h e r s ;)
April'ians, happy birthday guys. Wish you all the best in your life. (:
A p r i l S c h e d u l e . (:
Language Week at MRSM Merbok.
MRSM Kubang Pasu contestants, i'm praying for your victories. Do all the best, especially to drama team. *dah tak frust dah even tak dapat drama HAHA*
Standardized Test 2.
Lala. This is my first standardized test for this damn upper form! OH. MY. GOD. Ketaq lutut wa cakap lu. Dah la aku ni spesies hat payah pickup sikit time cegu dok mengajaq. Study seniqi pown baloq liat. Naseb baek Thirah, Reen, Mubin plus my superb Superman ada. Depa la yang qajen dok tolong ajaq. Thanks guys. (':
RC Camp at MRSM Baling.
Homaigod homaigod! Can't wait for this camp! Lala. Bak kata my Nabil sayengggg,
"Ada hikmah kita tak dapat drama"Lala. Betoi gak noh? Sijil sijilllllll. Woot woot. Tapi yang tak bestnya presiden RC p drama. )':
A n d m o r e e e e e . D o n ' t k n o w w h a t ' s c o m i n g n e x t . H e e . :D